Sex-u-al-li-TEEE

Hm. What a strange past two days. It leaves me a bit off-kilter.

Last night I went to a dyke bar, today I went to the GLBT center to see the ftm film "Unhung Heroes."

In both places I ended up striking up conversations with some cool guys. You know, chat, chat, chat. By the end of the conversation I realize that these guys are interested in me. I totally didn't even think about that being a possibility. And now I'm thinking about sexuality. It is strange for me to pass so well, that I get cruised by gay men and ingnored by dykes in queer spaces. I mean, am I leading men on, by being in gay places? Because I'm not into gay men? But on the other hand, how do I know I'm not into gay men? I mean, I've never had relations with a gay man...also, the only time I've ever had relations with any kind of man, though I really didn't like it, it was over ten years ago. I do love my gay porn...but I don't want anyone to be my experiment...that wouldn't be very cool for them. Also, really, I have no idea what to do with a man's penis. At all.

Also, really, what do I do about this being in queer space and being hit on all the time by gay men. I mean, I'm not offended at all. All the guys are cute and very nice. It's also very flattering. But...they think I'm a gay man (with the requisite sexual experience) and I'm not.

I don't know.

How much of sexuality is who you like, and how much of sexuality is who likes you?