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So, I'm sitting at home, not hanging out with anyone. And that is just perfect for me! I'm feeling like enjoying a nice evening at home.
Anyway, I took my car to the mechanic and he reajusted my clutch. What a great feeling it is to be able to shift into first gear again. I have to bring the car back in two weeks for him to replace my clutch cable. Hope it's not too expensive.
I had an inexplicable headache today and I had to take some aspirin. I have taking painkillers. But it was so bad that I was having trouble concentrating on my driving. So Advil and Vanilla Coke it was. I'm really enjoying Vanilla Coke...it's my reward for being good with my diet and working out.
I really love Mary Wells. She has such a great voice.
Anyway, I busted out Warcraft III for the first time last night and let me tell you I stayed up a bit too late playing it...okay, a lot too late.
When I got dressed today I put on my Levi's and an A-shirt. I looked at myself in the mirror, and I loved my physique. It was great seeing my chest staring back at me. So I thought I'd take this moment to procrastinate finishing the clean-up of my house to muse about my chest surgery. (Later installments of musings will deal with all sorts of exciting things--at least I hope exciting!)
Musings: Chest Surgery
I had my chest surgery on JUne 17 of this year. It's only been two months since it was done. I had a double incision with nipple grafts from Dr. Brownstein. I remember having a discussion about nipple sensation. There is a Dr. down here in LA who does two separate surgeries. This sort of "cut this half today, that half next month" apparently insures nipple sensation afterwards but the results aren't as aesthetically pleasing. I decided to go with the better looking chest...for a number of reasons. I don't want to go through two surgeries...I don't want to go under anasthesia twice in such short succession and I can's afford all that recovery time, or the extra costs. Plus I want a hot-looking chest. Anyway, some folks get their sensation back with nipple grafts. I remember before I went to have the surgery, so many people asked me if I was nervous. They were all sorts of squicked out by the idea of my body being cutt up. I didn't understand their concern. I mean, I was going to be unconcious for the operation, and I didn't want my chest in the first place, why would it bother me? When people asked me why I wanted to get my top surgery, so many reasons flooded my brain...but in the end I decided to tell them only one: I wanted to be able to stand up straight again. When I was a kid I had such good posture. Once the dinners* grew, I started slouching. It got to the point where I was hunched over all the time. I wanted to be able to stand up straight and hold my head up high.
So I got my surgery. I stayed with my best friend and ex, M-. M- was sweet and she took total care of me. Dr. Brownstein was the best. I've decided that everybody should go to him. He has a great bedside manner and his results are fab. I was on Percaset. Didn't like it. Some folks take Percaset recreationally...and I really can't understand it...I mean, it just put me to sleep...or made me groggy and goofy...let me tell you my conversation skills suffered!
Anyway, two friends I met, an old-school femme lesbian E- and her ftm boyfriend M-, gave be a bunch of PJ's to wear during my recovery and it saved my life!
So now I'm working out (at home, I have a weight bench and some weights). I was pleased to see that I had good musculature from before the surgery, vexed to see that I had gained quite the belly (in order to better disguise my dinners when I bound). So I've been working on reducing the belly and increasing the pecs. So far, so good. I don't have complete feeling back in my chest yet and of course I have scars, but I'm putting Vitamen E and cocoa butter on my chest everyday. I don't think my scars are that bad...though they are more prominant on the sides vs. the front. I'm not sure why. Probably post surgery movement. Dr. B was really careful not to mess up the tattoo I have on my ribcage. I can't wait until the 6 month "no direct sunlight" prohibition is up so I can show off my tattoo in a way a never could before.
Now I've got a great chest, and I love hanging out around the house wearing only a pair of boxers. Such freedom. It's like I've come home to my body. My posture has improved and I can wear suspenders with my suits without feeling self-concious...and of course wearing seat belts finally feels right to me. I just have to pay off the debt of my surgery now! I should be able to pay off all that credit card debt with my student loans. I also have to pay back my good pal L- who loaned me the bulk of the bill--knowing that I'd pay her back once my student loans came in. I felt bad taking money from anyone...but I felt worse having a D-cup pair of dinners! Totally worth it.
*I got the term dinners from discussions of various contestants on American Idol from my favorite site: http://www.televisionwithoutpity.com. If anyone doesn't know it, it's a site that makes fun of various TV shows though cynical recaps and they've got great message boards.
Okay, enough musings from me...I'm off to play more Warcraft!
Anyway, I took my car to the mechanic and he reajusted my clutch. What a great feeling it is to be able to shift into first gear again. I have to bring the car back in two weeks for him to replace my clutch cable. Hope it's not too expensive.
I had an inexplicable headache today and I had to take some aspirin. I have taking painkillers. But it was so bad that I was having trouble concentrating on my driving. So Advil and Vanilla Coke it was. I'm really enjoying Vanilla Coke...it's my reward for being good with my diet and working out.
I really love Mary Wells. She has such a great voice.
Anyway, I busted out Warcraft III for the first time last night and let me tell you I stayed up a bit too late playing it...okay, a lot too late.
When I got dressed today I put on my Levi's and an A-shirt. I looked at myself in the mirror, and I loved my physique. It was great seeing my chest staring back at me. So I thought I'd take this moment to procrastinate finishing the clean-up of my house to muse about my chest surgery. (Later installments of musings will deal with all sorts of exciting things--at least I hope exciting!)
Musings: Chest Surgery
I had my chest surgery on JUne 17 of this year. It's only been two months since it was done. I had a double incision with nipple grafts from Dr. Brownstein. I remember having a discussion about nipple sensation. There is a Dr. down here in LA who does two separate surgeries. This sort of "cut this half today, that half next month" apparently insures nipple sensation afterwards but the results aren't as aesthetically pleasing. I decided to go with the better looking chest...for a number of reasons. I don't want to go through two surgeries...I don't want to go under anasthesia twice in such short succession and I can's afford all that recovery time, or the extra costs. Plus I want a hot-looking chest. Anyway, some folks get their sensation back with nipple grafts. I remember before I went to have the surgery, so many people asked me if I was nervous. They were all sorts of squicked out by the idea of my body being cutt up. I didn't understand their concern. I mean, I was going to be unconcious for the operation, and I didn't want my chest in the first place, why would it bother me? When people asked me why I wanted to get my top surgery, so many reasons flooded my brain...but in the end I decided to tell them only one: I wanted to be able to stand up straight again. When I was a kid I had such good posture. Once the dinners* grew, I started slouching. It got to the point where I was hunched over all the time. I wanted to be able to stand up straight and hold my head up high.
So I got my surgery. I stayed with my best friend and ex, M-. M- was sweet and she took total care of me. Dr. Brownstein was the best. I've decided that everybody should go to him. He has a great bedside manner and his results are fab. I was on Percaset. Didn't like it. Some folks take Percaset recreationally...and I really can't understand it...I mean, it just put me to sleep...or made me groggy and goofy...let me tell you my conversation skills suffered!
Anyway, two friends I met, an old-school femme lesbian E- and her ftm boyfriend M-, gave be a bunch of PJ's to wear during my recovery and it saved my life!
So now I'm working out (at home, I have a weight bench and some weights). I was pleased to see that I had good musculature from before the surgery, vexed to see that I had gained quite the belly (in order to better disguise my dinners when I bound). So I've been working on reducing the belly and increasing the pecs. So far, so good. I don't have complete feeling back in my chest yet and of course I have scars, but I'm putting Vitamen E and cocoa butter on my chest everyday. I don't think my scars are that bad...though they are more prominant on the sides vs. the front. I'm not sure why. Probably post surgery movement. Dr. B was really careful not to mess up the tattoo I have on my ribcage. I can't wait until the 6 month "no direct sunlight" prohibition is up so I can show off my tattoo in a way a never could before.
Now I've got a great chest, and I love hanging out around the house wearing only a pair of boxers. Such freedom. It's like I've come home to my body. My posture has improved and I can wear suspenders with my suits without feeling self-concious...and of course wearing seat belts finally feels right to me. I just have to pay off the debt of my surgery now! I should be able to pay off all that credit card debt with my student loans. I also have to pay back my good pal L- who loaned me the bulk of the bill--knowing that I'd pay her back once my student loans came in. I felt bad taking money from anyone...but I felt worse having a D-cup pair of dinners! Totally worth it.
*I got the term dinners from discussions of various contestants on American Idol from my favorite site: http://www.televisionwithoutpity.com. If anyone doesn't know it, it's a site that makes fun of various TV shows though cynical recaps and they've got great message boards.
Okay, enough musings from me...I'm off to play more Warcraft!
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I hear you on all the other stuff about chest surgery too. I had mine in March with Browstein and I am just starting to get my nipple sensation back. It's not a big deal to me. I didn't tune into that area before, so not having it now isn't a change. It is a little scary how visible the belly becomes all of a sudden. I need to work on that. Not happening on my vacation with all these pints though.
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Have you played Deus Ex? That one's really good too.
As for nipple sensation...are you getting erotic sensation back? At the moment, I'm getting some sensation back...but not much, and not erotic.
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As for nipple sensation, nothing erotic. Just the bare beginnings of sensation. Nothing anywhere close to what I had before. I don't really care. Things are 100% better with my chest than before surgery, if I never got any more sensation than what I have, that would be fine.
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If you like Civ III, you'll really like Warcraft. It's similar, but more individual oriented. For example. You raise individual peasants, a nd each individual peasant can harvest lumber, mine gold, or build things like barracks, blacksmithy, and the like. You also create individual soldiers of different types, all lead by a hero (the sort of you). At the moment I'm running the campaign...wh ich is a series of quests. There are four races in the game: Human, Night Elf, Orcs, and Undead. You run through a campaign for each of them. You can also set up multiplayer games, play online, or set up a game vs. the computer. All in all it's pretty cool.
Back to the chest. At the moment, the area between my incisions and my nipple grafts is still numb. Have you gotten feeling back there yet? It's so bizzare to touch a part of your body that has no sensation. Anyway, like you, I don't care if I n ever get feeling back again...having this chest and how amazing it is to be able to exist the way I've wanted to ever since I was a kid...it's more than worth it.v
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